discomfort

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This pandemic has caused discomfort in different forms. Right now, I am feeling emotional discomfort. Like a combination of genuine gratitude and a fear of the worst. And I am figuring out what I need to do to survive. Should I be confronting my fears? Softening them? Distracting myself? I am becoming comfortable with accepting the discomfort in my environment and in my mind. Becoming comfortable with the idea of questioning the stories I tell myself. Stories, like that I have to make the best possible decisions all the time, that I need to do everything perfectly or it doesn't count, that I am not good enough but will be someday. When so much is uncertain, I want to allow myself to just exist in the flow of my world, falling back and trusting the earth to support me.

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